Sometimes an urge cannot be ignored. Sometimes when you are sitting just a cubicle away from a moist chocolate cake, you cannot help yourself. Before you know it, you’re licking your finger and dabbing at the remaining fluffy crumbs that didn’t make it into your mouth with the rest of the cake.
The urge is a beautiful thing. It floods your mouth with saliva at the thought of a warm chocolate chip cookie parting softly half, revealing a home of hidden chips that you cannot wait to coat your teeth with. It fixates your eyes on a plate of fresh-from-the-oven brownies that are releasing the smell of warm chocolate into the air.
I thought I would always be a loyal prisoner to the urge. Always nod my head for a second slice of cake. Always grab handfuls of chocolate bars from candy bowls. Feel no regret.
But something happened over the course of the past few months that changed the way I saw myself and the way I thought I would always see myself. Isn’t it weird how you look back on your past self and think “wow, past me would not even know who present me is!”
A few weeks ago I began a 30-day workout program called ChaLEAN, creating by Chalene Johnson, who also created the toning and stretching program PiYo, which I have also been incorporating into my workouts. It took me a while to find a workout program that worked for me, but ChaLEAN is a program that I can really get behind. I have tried YouTube videos, going to the gym, I even tried T25, but out of all of those, ChaLEAN has proven to be the biggest motivational workout.
Aaaaand with working out comes eating right.
I won’t say I ‘eat clean,’ because I don’t even know what the hell that means, BUT I will say that I am much more conscious about what I put into my body. Not because it’s what you’re “supposed” to do, but my body is happy when I do. My body can now tell the good food from the bad, which I think is amazing.
When I was younger (I’m 22, but still) I used to eat anythingggg I wanted and I felt totally fine. I could inhale pizza, brownies, cake, cookies–you know, the good stuff– and carry on with my day not a pound heavier and a regret-free stomach. Now, if I even have a chocolate bar, I feel sluggish, bloated, and just not great.
It’s amazing how food can transform your life!
That’s not to say that I don’t eat sweets, because I surely do. I baked all time and will begin sharing recipes on here. Junk food, as I stated before, is the
good BEST stuff.
Now, when I refuse that slice of chocolate cake, it’s not because I don’t want to gain unnecessary weight. It’s because my body knows the difference between healthy food and sweets, and it will NOT let me forget it.
The urge, while not as strong, is still there, but I gained a new kind of urge, too. I gained the urge to push myself, to sweat, to get stronger, and get my heart beating.